This blog is in response to the Proverbs 31 Bible study that Melissa Taylor is leading, on Karen Ehman’s book titled, “Let. It. Go.”
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.”
~ Colossians NIV
~ Colossians NIV
I grew up trying to be a “people pleaser.”
For my dad, it didn’t seem to make much difference how good my grades were in school, I could still “always do better.”
From my older brother I constantly received ridicule, so I was always striving to be his friend; which only led me into more hurtful ridicule from him.
My mom….well, my mom needed me to be the head of the family…the family being her and I…once the divorce had taken place. One huge problem remained; I was not quite ten years old at the time.
Yet, I continued to try to please, although I was never to be successful.
In time, I came to be angry that I never seemed to measure up to the standards put on me by others.
I soon rebelled and grew up troubled and…well, lets just say, “messed up.”
That caused me a lot of problems…for a lot of years.
I had spent my life trying to live up to others expectations of me. No matter what I did, I would always be viewed as wrong in someone’s eyes.
The problem, or should I say, one problem with being a people pleaser is, you will never please everyone.
By the time I came to know the Lord, I was well in control of my own life; had been for many years and not at all willing to let go.
But how was it working for me??
Yet, it was still difficult to let go. It was the only way of life I had known.
Even though I knew I must let go, I didn’t know how.
I was so used to ‘my thoughts; my ways’
I struggled each and every day to find a new path.
Truthfully, to this day I continue to struggle.
But it is studies such as this, along with time with the Lord on a daily basis, reading Scripture and pursuing this goal to do all for the Lord…..that continue to be helpful.
Change does not take place in a day…..or a year….
And it does not come easy. It does not come without great effort.
It does not come without numerous failures.
It does not come without regrets.
It does not come without tears.
But, it does come…..
My thoughts and efforts now more than ever, are turning towards the Lord.
I find of late that I am more intent now on pleasing Him, than I have ever been, and because of that I am more willing to do whatever it takes.
I am learning to be patient….with great difficulty…yes, it is a challenge.
But, I am now on that new path.
I am working at trying to please Him.
I might be a newbie, but I am now here.
I live for today…in the hopes that tomorrow I will be able to celebrate any small successes I have from today.
And I do.
My simple motto is this:
One day at a time.
And you know something?
It absolutely works!