From Unglued to Renewed

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2 (NIV)

As I read Lysa’s blog this morning on the topic of the above Scripture, I was quickly taken back to earlier days when I suffered from agoraphobia.

Oh how I remember the many fears I had adopted that haunted me each and every day. Those fears had become ‘etched’ in my mind.

I thought of nothing else as I would approach the door to leave the safety of my home.

Each time, I would recall my last attempt to leave, and I would be challenged once again; challenged to overcome intense fear….fear of it all….everything and anything….and I would continue to fail.

 I would falter and consequently fail to walk out that door a free woman; free to live as others lived.

Free to live as I had once lived.

My heart pounding so hard I could scarcely hear my own thoughts; my knees weakening, tingling sensations overtaking my body, sweat beading on the palms of my hands, the feeling of a band tightening around my head, and trembling…..I would break down and return to the safety of my living room.

I lived like this for many years….crippled and alone in this sickness.

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It has been many years now, and I have since overcome that disease.

 

I am once again a free woman.

Over time I learned to erase what had been etched in my mind.

Yes, there were growing pains…yes, there was failure…, but I did it. I finally conquered my sickness.

My mind was renewed and each day I continued to be transformed by the love of God.

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While I am constantly reminded of who the god of this world is, and to remove myself far from his grasp, I am also constantly reminded of who MY God is…a God who is capable of all and can and will deliver each one of us if we only allow Him to work in and through us.

The Lord empowered me to allow Him to erase what had been etched on my mind.
All the fears, the doubts…..His Hand gently removed those scars…and since then I have accepted and replaced them with good, healthy thoughts.

Just as He healed me in the area of my fears, I am confident of His ability to heal me in the areas of my becoming ‘Unglued.’

I only need to search for Him …. Turn to Him…. Invite Him in…. Constantly determine to do His good, pleasing, and perfect will.

The Lord will never let me down…it is only me who will allow me to continue to fail. In Him I find the strength to overcome … so it is to Him I must turn… I will turn, and become the woman I know I can be.

The woman He desires me to be.

I know I can be a better woman because He lives in me and He has given me the power.

What must I do?

Unremittingly, turn to Him. For it is when I turn to Him, I can only do the right thing.