Some days I am so angry with myself.
It seems like everything that comes out of my mouth is negative.
…and I can’t help myself.
One thing I have noticed is those are the days when I am Jesus starved.
Yes, Jesus starved.
The days when I am just so busy and preoccupied with everything else; the days that I have no time to spend reading the Bible or talking with the Lord.
The days when I send up a quick, “I’m sorry, Lord; I’ve been so busy today. I’m so sorry; please remind me to start my day with you tomorrow.”
That doesn’t cut it.
If I ever hope to grow closer to Jesus; to be more like Jesus; I must feed myself properly and regularly.
I don’t miss meals. I feed my body three meals each day. I don’t care how busy I am…I never miss a meal.
I am hungry, so I eat. I eat to nourish my body and to rid myself of hunger.
Why do I not see the same need to feed myself spiritually?
Truthfully, why do I not see my spiritual needs as more important than my physical needs?
In John’s gospel 4:32 & 34, when the disciples urged Jesus to eat, he responded: “I have food to eat that you know nothing about.” “My food is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.” (NIV)
I am here to do his will as well. I am here to glorify him.
My priorities need modification. Once again, I am convicted.
I need to be nourished spiritually; the rest will take care of itself. I hear Jesus speak these words to me. He cares for me.
I am forgiven; I am encouraged.
I can now move forward and begin again, knowing the Lord’s mercies are new every morning. He is here with me now…waiting…for me to turn to him.
Thank you, Jesus.