This posting is in response to a Bible study I am presently involved in with Proverbs 31 ministry. It is on the book, Greater, by Steve Furtick.
As I read chapters 3 and 4, I began to question, “Exactly what is my plow that needs to be burned, Lord?”
In response, to myself, I gathered it could be nothing else; it had to be the continuing battle with my fears. Ah yes, I must continue to overcome them in the ministry I am presently volunteering in too. Those nasty fears that I battled all my life will not simply go away and stay away. It is a constant battle.
It is one I have been winning, mind you, but, nevertheless, I still find myself encountering fear at every turn.
I continued to read on. Each page I turned seemed more interesting than the last.
I found myself nodding my head in agreement with Pastor Furtick. “Yes, yes, I know what I must do.”
Then….suddenly…..I just knew the Lord was trying to get my attention.
Have you ever felt that way?
So engrossed in your own thoughts…yet, you feel the Lord competing for your attention.
Before I had had an opportunity to think about it….I paused, of course, to clear my head of my own thoughts in order to hear what it was He wanted to say to me.
Are you ready for this….the BIG Ouch?
I sure wasn’t!!
That is what I heard.
Ouch, ouch and double OUCH.
How on earth can an insecure person like me be battling with pride? (Because I AM an insecure person…honestly)
Immediately following that thought, the Lord placed recent memories in my head of thoughts I had entertained, and even words that I had spoken.
Have I said it enough yet? OUCH.
There I sat, suddenly uncomfortable and convicted. I for sure had pride issues, and now I had to own them and deal with them.
I put down the book, determined to gather my thoughts and listen for any further words from the Lord.
The nasty words and thoughts circled my conscience and I felt ill.
I knew I had not been following the Lord.
I knew my thoughts and words were against everything He taught me.
I need to humble myself. I need to focus on Him and what He has for me to do.
I heard nothing further from the Lord. His single word had been enough. It did its job nicely.
My burning plow is to be my pride. It is not going to be easy to burn, but I must.
Oh Lord, help me to burn my pride to ashes.
My pride entertains anger, and allows me to feel self righteous. It holds me back from living in peace and robs me of true happiness. And worse, it deters me from being the help to others I long to be.
Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness. Thank you for showing me the plow I must leave behind. Thank you…for I know you will stay by my side as I walk down this road. I am not alone, for you are with me…always. Amen.